I just wish I had been born a woman. Whether transsexual or transgender, nothing could be more indifferent to me.

I don't feel like transitioning and upsetting or destroying a life. I was just born wrong and it breaks me.

Dysphoria, dysmorphia, I don't know. If it describes that I would rather have a vagina, what does that mean? Basically, it doesn't matter. I don't have one. I have a penis and I hate that thing.

Thanks for all the words. Many have offered me help and in the end I have learned a lot. No one can help me but myself.