My soul is suffering so much. It cries out. Every day, every night. You know, I've been with my wife for almost 15 years. And back then, when we came together, I was just a man. I had some strange views here and there, but I didn't know who I really was. The year 2017 shattered all that. I started to brood. And by 2020, I knew who I was. That is, 13 years of unknowingly lying to my wife and now 2 years of knowingly lying to my wife. I don't know how to tell her. There is so much at stake.

I know moments that last only seconds when I allow myself to be this woman who is my soul. And only then am I free and happy, 100% happy. I know that would be the way to find inner peace. But I don't know what else it would mean.