There is no perfect world. And no matter what I do, it never will be. You know, quite often I wish I were cis. I would never think about wanting to change genders. If I went bald one day, that would be totally fine. Annoying but okay. The thought of becoming an old man today is so bad for me that I immediately think of suicide.

No, it will never be perfect for us and I don't know how it will get better, at least to a certain extent. And I don't know why anyone would do this to me.