Your article is great, it showed me once again who I am. That I am afraid. That I, like you back then, try to continue to live a cis man life. Since I know that I am not a man, it is really difficult. I understood that about 2019. I was 36 then, I'll be 39 this year, and it's not getting any easier.

I still don't know if I'm ready to live a cis woman's life though. There's just too much fear of losing a lot of what's important to me, what I've built up as a man.